Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

He took up our pain




It took us a whole day waiting for a vacant room in Lung Center Hospital. Then as we were settling down in our ward, a nurse came in. She asked me for my name, reading from her note, she told me that I was there to have “metastasectomy." She tried to pronounce it twice but failed. We all laughed, and I told her, “yes, I will have thoracic surgery to remove a metastasis in my right lung”.

My surgeon delayed the procedure for a couple of days. He told us that his fellows would not be available. We had to wait for them so we did not have to pay for people who would assist him in the surgery. We were thankful for the delay because we spent a couple of days receiving visitors. We were happy to reunite with family, relatives, and friends. 

I also need to undergo several clearances. My cardiologist had to make sure my heart would not fail during the surgery. The pulmonologist conducted a series of difficult breathing tests. To make sure that my lungs would be strong enough to lose a chunk.

It was six o'clock in the morning when a hospital aide came and transferred me to the operating room. Our roommates, after sharing our two days with them, wished me "luck" that was the last time I saw them because they would check out later. 

I had been under the knife before and I knew the routine. The anesthesiologist assured me that everything will be alright. She checked the drip needle that the nurse stuck on my right hand where she would inject the anesthesia. She told me that it was too small, and she had to stick a bigger one on my other hand. But I did not have to worry because she would do it when I was sleep already. I told her it was okay because at this point, I lost count on how many needles were stuck on my body.

Then she put a mask on my face, and I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already afternoon. I could not breathe; breathing was so excruciating painful. I may have been crying out loud, and I guess I was. I looked out the viewing room, I saw my wife Narlin, my son Reuven, my sister Dadai and some friends. I may had looked so bad because they seemed to be on the verged of crying. I tried to smile to assure them I was alright, but it looked more like grimace. I tried to put up a thumbs up sign, but I guess nobody noticed.

When I got back to my room, the surgeon told me that he would release me the next day because of the hospital hazard. Most of the patients there have contagious lung diseases and it would be better for me to recover at home.

Unless... they removed the machines that pumped air on my lungs and drained the fluid. It caused me so much discomfort because I needed to go to the rest room and I didn't want to do it lying down. They brought an x-ray machine on the room to see if my lungs were inflated already. The doctors thought it was okay to remove and I felt relived that I could finally go to the rest room. And go home.

Then something happened that would extend my misery for the days to come. The doctor removed the six-inch tube from my lungs with no local anesthesia (ouch!). He was trying to be funny doing that so I won't notice him doing it.

As we were preparing to go home, the nurse removed the drip needle. Remember, the anesthesiologist stuck a bigger needle on my left hand. So she first removed the needle on my left hand and then proceeded to remove the one on my right hand. My wife, my sister, the nurse and me were having a nice chat that we didn't notice that I was soaking with blood. She forgot to tape the needle hole on my hand and the blood was flowing like a mini faucet from the hole in my hand. It was terrifying.

Then while I was changing my shirt, I coughed, fluids came flowing out of my surgical wound. A doctor came and patched it up. But the fluids kept on gushing out from the wound. The surgeon requested for ultrasound to know how much fluid remained in my lungs. After giving it a lot of thought, he decided to insert a JP drain into the surgical wound using a skin anesthesia. He did this in the emergency room. The procedure was so painful that I almost lost consciousness.

We would be traveling for more than four hours back to Malasiqui. The doctor knew that when the effect of the skin anesthesia would wear off in three or four hours. He taught me how to administer the anesthesia by injecting it through the JP drain. Before we left, we asked the nurse to do it for me, but she would not. She thought it was unusual to inject skin anesthesia inside the wound. So I had to do it for every three or four hours for a day for the next twenty-four hours.

It was a painful experience. I could not imagine the ordeals that our Lord Jesus had to go through. Besides all the pain and suffering He had went through, at the last minute of His earthly life, a soldier had to pierced His side. I can understand, how fluid (water and blood) flowed from His lung. My pains were nothing compare to what Jesus had experienced. He went through the pains and sufferings so that we can enjoy a lasting relationship with God our Father. 

Our Lord Jesus understands our pains, hardships, difficulties and sufferings. He experienced all those for us.

Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.

But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all. 

Isaiah 53:4-6 (NIV)



Thursday, February 13, 2020

Healing may take time*


He took the blind man by the hand and led him out of the village; and when he had put saliva on his eyes and laid his hands on him, he asked him, “Can you see anything?” And the man looked up and said, “I can see people, but they look like trees, walking.” Then Jesus laid his hand on his eyes again; and he looked intently and his sight was restored, and he saw everything clearly. – Mark 8:23-25
In today’s scripture, Jesus healed the blind man gradually. When his sight was not immediately restored, the man staged with Jesus and followed his direction until the healing was complete. This requires patience.

As we have previously noted, healing does not always come on our timeline. Furthermore, it does not always come in a form that we want or expect. In the scriptures healing means wholeness. Wholeness is not the same as the perfection of all the parts. You can be whole and still have some physical problems that will not go away. If you are deaf or lame, for example, you can be whole even though you may never be able to hear or walk. Although you have physical challenges, you are not prohibited from experiencing the fullness of lie as God intended it to be.

In the same way, you can be a whole person and still have some life challenges that will not go away. You can still celebrate wholeness even part of your life is less than perfect.
Find a person who experiences a chronic physical problem. Ask this person to share his or her story with you. You might ask several of the following questions:
  1. What it has been like to struggle with your pain, weakness, or limitation?
  2. In what ways have you experienced the power of God working in your situation?
  3. How have you been blessed because of the difficulty you experience?
  4. What transformation has happened in your attitudes, your faith, or your relationships as a result of the problem?
As you converse with this person, listen for his or her own sense of wholeness. And celebrate that you, too, can feel whole even when some parts of your body or your life are less than perfect.
Healing may take time.

*Excerpt from Having the Mind of Christ by Paul E. Miller & Phyllis Cole-Dai

Sunday, February 09, 2020

Every moment is a blessing

After spending almost nine months in the Philippines, we are so happy for the opportunity to spend Christmas and New Year with all our children. It was a rare moment for us to be together for more than a week celebrating Christmas and remembering God’s faithfulness in our lives.

It is true, the unexpected extended time away brought about changes. First, we noticed that the children are more mature, more responsible, and can do chores by themselves. Second, we can longer do the “heavy lifting." We are now a team with our children that each of us working together in a ministry God has given to us. Moreover, we believe our hosting of YWAM teams has come to an end.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things that happen in our lives but it takes faith to be grateful for all of our lives—the good as well as the bad, the moments of joy as well as the moments of sorrow, in success as well as failures, in health as well as sickness. We learn to trust the Lord that blessings are never in disguised. Every moment is a blessing from God.

This reminds us of Job when he says: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return there. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; Blessed be the name of the LORD.”-Job 1:21

Once again, we are thankful for your love and prayers. We remember you who sacrificed a lot financially to help us taking care of the children. God bless you more and more.

Sharing Jesus' Story

We had a busy Christmas. It is because Christmas is never considered a holiday here in Thailand. No Christmas break for the children. So, they had to divide their time. going to school and celebrating Christmas.

One of the special activities we did last Christmas was caroling. We went into the community singing Christmas gospel songs and praying for the people. Even non-Christians would invite us to sing and pray for them. An opportunity to share the gospel through songs and prayers.

Moreover, we participated in a Christmas party organized by our church. Our church is planting a church in the village. Christmas party here is the time when we share Jesus' story in the village and we do the “raffle” thing. People received a gift by drawing their respective numbers. We sang Christmas songs and the children presented a drama about the story of Jesus—his birth, ministry, death, and resurrection.

Prayer Concerns

We are holding several English camps (Daily Vacation Bible School) during school breaks. Our church will join us, and our children will serve as camp staff. Please pray for God’s provisions as we minister to the children in the community.

Our children are now the main worship team in our church. They lead the worship and play the instruments as well. We are hoping to buy more musical instruments like a bass guitar. We are hoping we can teach them more worship songs. Please pray that God will use them in this ministry.

Our truck is in the shop once again. It is still working well but the maintenance is getting costly. We are praying for a new van that we can use when our truck broke down and we need it during the rainy season. We may not get the van we are praying for, we are looking for another van.

We are praying to do the after school English classes once again. We are planning to work with the School of Tomorrow and its BLESS (Basic Literacy Education Saving Souls) Project. We are praying to teach the children in the community to read and write in English and eventually share the gospel with their parents. It was a ministry we were doing for years and we like to do it again better this time with us to undergo training.

Joey needs to go back in March for two weeks to the Philippines for monitoring. He will have bone scans, blood tests, x-rays, and other follow-up checkups. Praying for favorable results. We are praying to find a good oncologist here in Thailand so that we don’t need to go to the Philippines for monitoring. Please pray for safe travels and provisions.

Thank you once again for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. We are feeling your love all the time. To God be the glory.

Friday, August 23, 2019

Don't Worry





Whenever we are staying in the house with Narlin’s sister, a little bird land by our window, sings some notes, hangs out for about ten minutes to “chat” with us, then flies away. She will be back in the late afternoon to do the same. What a joy to start and end our day, it seems that God is telling us not to worry about Joey’s health situation, reminding us of His promise in Matthew 6:25-27:

“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?”

It has been two months since we left Thailand and we are still here in the Philippines. Yes, it’s about my health. The last CT Scan in Thailand shows that a tumor is growing on my right lung. The radiologist’ impression it is a metastasis from the kidney cancer. Dr. Adefuin, my oncologist asked us to come home so that I can undergo PET CT to determine the “shape” and extent of the tumor.

We thought our time here would be shorter this time, but God has other plans. We can’t wait to go back home to Thailand to be with the people we love and serve.

Thankfully, it is still localized, not irregular in shape and according to her has a moderate to low malignancy. She requested for another CT Scan for correlation, but my creatinine level is high, my nephrologist has not cleared me to undergo the test. My lone left kidney is having a hard time keeping my creatinine at a normal level. The CT scan is postponed for two weeks.

Thank you so much for praying for us. We are touched by your love and concern, reaching to us through personal messages, comments, and emails. Thank you for praying for the children, church, and ministries, we left behind while we are undergoing medications.

Monday, April 01, 2019

By His stripes we are healed


He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed. -Isaiah 53:6
In about two days Narlin and I are flying back to Mae Sai. We have been away from home for practically three months. The longest time we have been away since we came to Thailand in 2006. It is also the longest time we are away from the children. We couldn’t wait to see them again. We are grateful to the Lord that under Jillian’s watch they did well performing their household duties and other responsibilities.

The unexpected surgery, the pains and the initial false-negative biopsy results had led to confusion about my disease. It is only after the further immunostain test and consulting with the oncologist that we understood better.  The oncologist told us that the tumor is renal cell carcinoma, a kidney cancer. The urologist’s decision to remove my kidney was right and probably eliminates cancer.  The only serious threat is if the cancer cells had already spread to the other organs.

Thankfully, the bone scan reveals that there is no evidence of tumor invasion to my bone. However, she suspected that the tumor has spread to the liver hence she will closely monitor it by having CT Scan every three months. Just in case cancer has spread to the liver then I have to undergo targeted therapy by oral medication.

Please pray for Narlin too as she needs to take care of her heart. Her doctor diagnosed that one of the chambers heart is getting bigger and because of her family’s health history she needs to take preventive medication.

Please continue to pray for complete healing from the surgery and total cure from cancer. I’m hoping this will be my last update regarding our health because we believe God will heal us sooner.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

God Heals

It's been a while since I post in this blog. I am sharing to you a post from my other blog about my health. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this blog. Here it is:

They brought me to the operating room at 10 o'clock in the morning. The doctors would remove my right kidney, part of the liver and gall bladder because of a tumor.  At about eleven thirty, I was put under general anesthesia. The last thing I remembered was they were putting the surgical cap on my head and I passed out as I was praying to Jesus to take care of me during the surgery.

I woke up to a comforting voice of the nurse telling me that that the operation is over. I glanced at the wall clock and saw that it was almost one o'clock in the morning. I learned later that the operation went on for over eight hours and I was at the recovery room for five hours. I was in so much pain and I was shivering, it was cold. The anesthesiologist gave me more morphine. Then I was brought back to the ward. It was one of the most difficult hours of my life. But Jesus was there to see me through. Praise the Lord!

It is over a month since the surgery and although the surgical wound is not fully healed,  I'm recovering well.  The result of the biopsy is negative for cancer. My doctor wanted to be sure that I will have proper treatment. He sent the specimen to the National Kidney and Transplant Institute (NKTI) for review and further test. The result was confirmed to be negative. But the doctor advised us to be examined by an oncologist just to make sure that the tumor does not spread on the other organs.

While we are here, we took the opportunity for Narlin to have her general check-up. It was found out she also has a few health problems and she will have treatment. We realized we were not looking after our own health while doing ministry in Thailand.

I found out later that the tumor is a renal cell carcinoma, a kidney cancer.